You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one. You do not want a burnt offering. The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.
Have you ever tried to make up for sexual misbehaviors by volunteering and giving of your time or money to a community or church cause? Though the sacrifice of time or money slightly helped make you feel better, it always seems to lack somehow.
King David wrote the words above after having been outed for trying to cover up his sexual misbehavior by committing adultery with another man’s wife. He knew that no amount of sacrifice could make up for his wrong behavior. The only thing that can help with how you may be feeling for your sexual misbehavior is to have a truly repentant heart.
A repentant heart is not the same as feeling remorse for getting caught. A repentant heart is when your heart truly breaks in recognition of the wrongness in your behavior (whether you were caught or not). It is an acknowledgement that the behavior was and is wrong; AND a decision to not only refuse to repeat the behavior, but to also intentionally live in a God honoring way.
A repentant heart accepts responsibility for the wrong behavior. Though there may be various circumstances that contributed toward your behavior, it was still your behavior for which you are responsible. A repentant heart does not try to blame others or the circumstances. A repentant heart simply acknowledges the wrong and determines to not repeat it.
Today focus on your heart: is your heart full of remorse or repentance? If you are not sure or if you don’t know how to become repentant, ask God to give you a heart of repentance and to live in a way that honors Him. Demonstrate your repentance by determining in your heart and mind to not repeat the behavior(s) anymore.